For you Boo

You have thrown me away in the most insulting way ever, you were so ignorant and you let your ego conquer you. Therefore, you choose to leave me in a harsh way. You should have just leave and not say a word to me. I maybe find it hard at first, which I did, I was crying out loud alone for days believing that you really left but soon after I am fine.  You choose your ignorance and ego to ask me for things that I didn’t even ask for. You always count my mistakes whilst I always try to forget yours. You made me feel bad about myself for thinking that im too toxic for you. You showered me with your love, care and gifts, but soon after, you got tired and sick of it you choose to treat me badly and make me feel guilty. You did it. I admit, I didn’t love you at first. Who would love someone easily at the first place. That is cheap love. You did confess to me the first reason you get close to me was to make your senior sister jealous. Well honey, you did it. You made her jealous and you made her hate me.  Congrats boo. Even that happens, I, who didn’t love you, stood for you. I care for you. You only want to see my mistakes. You count them, and then you made me feel bad about them. Here is my word, my thoughts and my feeling for you that you will never get, never feel ever. I do not get close to you to have your money, your wealth nor your fame. I get attached to you because I fucking care about you. Even when I didn’t love you. I still care. If I crave for your money, I will ask you everything. Everything that I want. And also, I would go back to you even after this happens. For example, she who have been ‘diludah’ by you, she who insulted you and even insulted me (like I didn’t know) STILL be attach to you. Im not a rich girl but I know every person must have a reason to be friends with me if im rich. You should know better. You live that life.  I took a good care of you. All I did was give you all of my attention, my time, my love and my commitment. You are blind enough to see because you did not expect that from me. Sorry I am not the perfect one to take care of you. I love you with all my heart. Treated you just like my own sister. I guess you are about to realized that I will not return to you ever and you just lost someone who meant something to you. Too late to apologise, you choose to walk out and leave and even said that you will not come back after, look at you now, whatever you did was over the limit and i cannot cope with you ever. im done. you have your life, your friends, your sisters, boyfriend, live your lavish life. i dont want to be a part of it. You should know that im walking away and never return. You keep threating me with my secrets, my shits and my attitude. Funny, not even once I threat you with all that you have done (please don’t think that I will). Forgive me for all my wrongdoings. Leave me alone. I already paid my compensation hence read again my text and then read again your reply after. You never wished to get back to me so stick to it. You choose that way so let it be that way. Perhaps maybe if you didn’t ask for the compensation money, you didn’t go that far, I would probably consider forgiving you. But with the insultation? I guess not. Happy becoming birthday. May you have a blast! Don’t do what your senior sister don’t want you to do. I don’t want her to blame me for teaching you all that stuff. Things that I didn’t even do. Stay clean, stay healthy, live happily and good luck for your final semester. Good luck for your future as well.

Au revoir anonymous.